Tries to lose virginity, avoid ‘Retribution’

In what he will later call a “last ditch effort of desperation,” Rodger makes a final push towards convincing a woman to have sex with him. In a manifesto he later writes, he says that if he fails to do so, he will schedule a long-planned shooting spree to kill as many women as he can in revenge for his failure. He will write:

I spent a lot of time exercising in my room in a final effort to appear as attractive as possible to girls. I proposed that after two weeks of rigorous exercising, I will try my hardest to go out in Isla Vista and do everything I can to meet a girl and lose my virginity. … Before [I] would set the definite decision to plan the Day of Retribution, I wanted to give women and humanity one more chance to accept me and give me a chance to have a pleasurable youth. I resolved that if I go out to Isla Vista for this final time, and I still end up going back to my room as a lonely virgin, I will have no choice but to plan my Retribution.

The plans do not bear fruit: he goes to a party, tries to push a group of women off of a ten-foot ledge after, he will write, a “dark, hate-fueled rage overcame my entire being,” and instead falls himself (or is pushed) from the ledge and breaks his leg. He will write:

A whole group of the obnoxious brutes came up and dragged me onto their driveway, pushing and hitting me. I wanted to fight and kill them all. I managed to throw one punch toward the main attacker, but that only caused them to beat me even more. I fell to the ground where they started kicking me and punching me in the face.

Losing his virginity, he will write, “was the only thing that could have saved me. I was giving the female gender one last chance to provide me with the pleasures I deserved from them.”